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Archive for May, 2008

It’s not what I said but how I did it

Posted by ggough56 on May 28, 2008

The conservative mind says that it’s not how you do it, but it’s what you do.  The liberal mind says that it’s not what you do, but it’s how you do it.  I realise that I’m oversimplifying, but honestly, these mindsets have been at odds with each other for quite some time.  Honestly, these mindsets battle within me.

“There’s a battle raging inside of me” – A. Grant

It’s not that I’m completely unconcerned with what I do, but I’m very concerned with how I do it.  It’s not that I’m unconcerned with the message, but I’m very concerned with the intent.  I am concerned with the playout.  I’m very intimately involved with the playout….and I don’t think that’s happenstance.  I think it was designed to be that way.

In all my short years, I’ve learned that it’s easy to create division and less easy to create union.  We fight for union, but we don’t live it out.  We desire unity, but we live in juxtaposed statures.  It’s not the disagreement that’s the problem it’s the juxtaposition of the mindsets.  It’s in the comparing and the contrasting that the disagreement elevates to offense and disregard.

If you are not fighting for one thing you are fighting against another.  Your mindset might be correct….maybe more correct than the next persons, but what are you doing out of being correct?  What are you doing about the fact that you may in fact be the most correct?

Our attitude should be like that of The Union, who even though by very nature was correct, did not consider correctness to be used as an advantage against, but instead took on the nature of service.  In this, unity was elevated above agenda.  In this, correctness was humbled.  In this, The Union became the center.  In this, The Union was before all things and all things were held together in The Union.

It sounds magical with that language, doesn’t it?  I wish we would have stopped loadings words, letters and paragraphs.  I wish we would have been more concerned with the union of them.  It is the union of them that stands before the meaning and it is the meaning that is held together by the union.  It was.  It is.  It will be.  Can you get outside of that?

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Have you ever met someone that you regretted?

Posted by ggough56 on May 18, 2008

I’m always open to meeting with people to support them, encourage them or what have you.  Sometimes I find that this gets taken advantage of because the individuals that desire to meet with me have only one objective: to determine I’m flawed and discredit me.  I’m disconcerted about a situation in my life where I’ll be meeting people that I feel have this intent.

Not sure what will happen from here.

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The anger of having been a fool

Posted by ggough56 on May 17, 2008

“Some people hope for a miracle cure, some people just accept the world as it is” – B. Joel

Always to join the correct camp, the mantra of our generation continues to echo.  Honestly, it can get very old, because in working out the details of joining the right camp I fail to connect with the people that may be most important to me.  I guess I’ve come to a point in my life where I’m rejecting the entire notion of camps and groups.  At least in their divisiveness and means to separate.  Maybe when Paul spoke of no slave or free, Jew or Gentile, male or female in Christ, he was getting at my very angst.  Who knows?

But seriously, we don’t often take to account that we spend loads of time to be in the right camp when we could be spending all that time getting to know each other and being with each other.  I think it stems back to fear.  There seems to be a genuine fear if we cannot affirm ourselves in the eyes of others.  If I make half-grapefruit hats and wear them in public, it’s almost as quick that I find avid support amongst people in my new found wardrobe.  I wonder, I just wonder, what would it be like if I chose to wear my half-grapefruit hat and decided that I did not need to look for affirmation in others, but instead sought community with others in my wearing my half-grapefruit hat?  Well, I would have to consider others before myself.  Yes, in being concerned with others affirmation of us, we are actually concerned first with ourselves.  Anyone who carries around their choir is probably not only suffering from an aching back, but a serious need for self-confidence.

Now, I’m not the most self-confident person, I’ll be first to admit it and well, if others want to join that camp they may (haha – that was funny), but the point is that we should aim to bring others into our fold, wellness and prosperity.  Instead we seem to inflict our own founded judgements and corresponding punishments for what we see manifested in an individual.  Instead, we seem to divide ourselves.

So, I charge you, do not divide or separate.  Always aim to invite people into your fold.  When you are inclined to judge, think first to judge yourself just as harshly, then maybe you’ll feel the sting of your own prejudice.  Let he who is without sin cast the first stone.  Oh how that levels the field we all play war in.

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In the beginning was the conversation…

Posted by ggough56 on May 12, 2008

If you enjoy ground beef mixed with eggs and some seasoning, baked into a loaf and served to many, you will love the following….

[The music opens before the conversation begins, it’s a wrestling, it’s a yearning.  It knows what it must pour out from itself and it’s beginning the creative birthing process]

The Creative: I would do anything for love, I’d run right into hell and back.  I would do anything for love, I’d never lie to you and that’s a fact.  But I’ll never forget the way you feel right now, oh no, no way.  I would do anything for love, but I won’t do that, no I won’t do that.  Anything for love, oh, I would do anything for love, I would do anything for love, but I won’t do that.  No, I won’t do that.

Unborn Likeness: Somedays it don’t come easy, somedays it don’t come hard, somedays it don’t come at all and these are the days that never end.  Some nights your breathing fire, and some nights you’re carved in ice, some nights you’re like nothing I’ve ever seen before or will again.  Maybe I’m crazy, oh it’s crazy and it’s true.  I know you can save me, no one else can save me now but you.

The Creative: As long as the planets are turning, as long as the stars are burning, as long as your dreams are coming true, you’d better believe it, that I would do anything for love and I’ll be there till the final act.  I would do anything for love.  I’ll take a vow and seal a pact.  But I’ll never forgive myself if we don’t go all the way tonight and I would do anything for love, oh I would do anything for love.  I would do anything for love, but I won’t do that.  No, I won’t do that.

Unborn Likeness: Somedays I just pray for silence, somedays I pray for soul, somedays I just pray to the god of sex and drums and rock n’ roll. Sometimes I lose the feeling and sometimes I lose control. Sometimes I just lose it all when I watch you dance and the thunder rolls. Maybe I’m lonely, that’s all I’m qualified to be.

The Creative: There’s just one and only, one and only promise I can keep. As long as the wheels are turning, as long as the fires are burning, as long as your prayers are coming true you’d better believe it that I would do anything for love and you know it’s true and that’s a fact. I would do anything for love and there’ll never be no turning back. But I’ll never do it better than I do it with you, so long, so long. I would do anything for love, oh I would do anything for love. I would do anything for love, but I won’t do that, no, no, no I won’t do that. But I’ll never stop dreaming of you every night of my life. No way and I would do anything for love, oh I would do anything for love. I would do anything for love, but I won’t do that, no I won’t do that.

[The Likeness is born and has it’s own existence and voice]

Likeness: Will you raise me up, will you help me down?  Will you get me right out of this God-forsaken town?  Will you make it all a little less cold?

The Creative: Now I can do that.  Oh, I can do that.

Likeness: Will you hold me sacred, will you hold me tight?  Will you colorize my life?  I’m so sick of black and white.  Will you make it all a little less old?

The Creative: I can do that, Oh, now I can do that.

Likeness: Will you make me some magic with your own two hands?  Will you build an emerald city out of these grains of sand?  Can you give me something I can take home?

The Creative: Now, I can do that, Oh, now I can do that.

Likeness: Will you cater to every fantasy I’ve got?  Will you hose me down with Holy water if I get too hot?  Will you take me places I’ve never known?

The Creative: I can do that, Oh, I can do that.

Likeness: After a while you’ll forget everything.  It was a brief interlude and a midsummer nights fling and you’ll see that it’s time to move on.

The Creative: I won’t do that.  I won’t do that.

Likeness: I know the territory I’ve been around.  It’ll all turn to dust and we’ll all fall down.  Sooner or later you’ll be screwing around.

The Creative: I won’t do that.  No, I won’t do that.  Anything for love, oh I would do anything for love.  I would do anything for love, but I won’t do that.  No, I won’t do that.

[The promise remains true]

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